dumb people

    Mack had a school project last month that she spent at LEAST 20 HOURS on, and the freaking teacher gave her a D, yep a D, a 64. she spent 3 Sundays talking to my grandma about it since she couldn't talk to my grandpa (he was in the air force during WWII, and passed away 2 years ago). she did a LOT of research for the project, including working on a visual, which was a diorama. She took a shoe box and put blue and green construction paper in it, blue for the sky, green for the grass, and HAND DREW 2 airplanes that she saw on the internet, glued them into place and added other details, like a person working on the plane on the ground, then her WRITTEN report which was supposed to be in journal entry form, he said was written in TIMELINE form, um NO, i checked her report it was indeed JOURNAL ENTRY form. the teacher is a douche bag. we all know what a timeline looks like and we all know what a journal entry looks like. EX:    TIMELINE:

• BLAH BLAH BLAH

1. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH
2. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH
3. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH

• BLAH BLAH BLAH

1. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH
2. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH
3. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH

• BLAH BLAH BLAH

1. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH
2. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH
3. BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH

am i wrong here?

               JOURNAL ENTRY:

                                                                                                                            date
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah

                                                                                                                              date
blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah

right?

she did the JOURNAL ENTRY type and he said it was wrong, why? because she put TWO different DATES on the same page. ive asked for a meeting with him, if he refuses, i CAN and WILL get him fired. ive done it before and ill do it again.

her second grade teacher, LET her be BULLIED in the water fountain line, and did NOTHING. i called a meeting with her, we met, nothing changed, so i went to the school board and got her fired. i wasnt the only one to complain about this teacher, but when they heard she let a child be BULLIED while she stood there and did nothing, that was it for them, they fired her and she lost  her teaching license, because of it.

personally i think the teacher needs to go back to english class and LEARN writing styles, like seriously? you said it was wrong? um no, im a writer, i know the freaking difference between the two. one of my passions is WRITING. whether it be blog posts or short stories or letters. and no ones ever read my short stories because well, theyre like my journal, i dont like letting other people read them, theyre personal.

NONE of the kids like this teacher, hes a wicked asshole. ive consulted with one of my best guy friends (the one i wrote about earlier this month) and he said he would come up and kick the teachers ass. hes always called her HIS pumpkin (red hair) shes ALWAYS been HIS. shes not his child biologically but he always called her his. ever since we met 13 yrs ago. hes really protective of her (and me and maddy, or as he calls her squirt) and he doesnt even know maddy...lol...

Mack

Maddy

the two girls. and yes they look very much like ME.

i dont know...

    On sunday we went to VT to my niece/nephews birthday party, was a GREAT DAY. had fun, the kids had fun. well i had an extra kid with me, i had her all weekend, and she LOVED it, well on sunday her foster "dad" called/texted me. i dont know HOW he got my number, i dont know HOW he knew i had her and i dont know HOW he knew i was out of town. i NEVER gave him my number, ON PURPOSE. i DONT like him, so therefor i never gave him my number. her foster mom has my number, and thats only to keep in touch when i have her. she told me she doesnt want to go back to ny, she would rather live with her foster mom, but ultimately she wants to live with me. we got home and there was a note from him, telling me not to let her foster mom have her and to call him when we got home. um no, i had an agreement with her foster mom, i went thru with it. im sorry but im not sending a child into hell because the crackhead foster father wants to do drugs and thats more important than feeding the kids and if they do feed them, its hot dogs while they have steak, NO NO NO NO, SO WRONG. any GOOD parent would give the kids steak and they eat hot dogs, at least thats HOW I AM. and if theres not enough, i go without. when she lived across the street, she would come over everyday, and i didnt mind. and if i fed her (which i did every night she was here) and if there wasnt enough, i made damn sure that the kids ate, my dad ate and brian ate, if i didnt eat that night, i didnt eat, big deal. and dinner time is at a decent time NOT at the kids bedtime, are you FUCKING KIDDING ME? you eat dinner at 9 at night, what fucking crack are you on? and then the kids have to stay awake til after dinner? EAT DINNER AT A FUCKING REASONABLE HOUR. UGH. then ya bitch cuz the kids dont want to get up in the morning, well gee i fucking wonder why. oh and if the kids ask for seconds all they get is veggies, really? if they ask for seconds (which they usually dont at my house because i usually give them enough to fill them up the first time, like any GOOD parent would do, but on the off chance they want more, ill give them another helping of EVERYTHING) yeah, fucking crackheads. cant stand people like that!

       Got another update on my gram, shes well enough to be moved from the ICU to a regular room, and eventually be transferred to my local hospital. she CAN talk, but its like baby talk, you cant really understand her. she DIDNT need the breathing tube, she just had an off day. and thats the latest i know about her.

    One of our neighbors, who owes us 8 grand wants us to take over his truck...dodge durango. i have several problems with it, ONE being thats how hes going to try to get out of paying us back. TWO being its yet another FUCKING bill we CANT afford. THREE, insurance is going to be thru the fucking roof because brians only had his license ONE FUCKING YEAR. WERE SUPPOSED TO BE SAVING MONEY. we have to find another place to fucking live, and hes more fucking concerned about a fucking vehicle. ok, i KNOW its his only mode of transportation, but shouldnt a FUCKING ROOF OVER YOUR FUCKING KIDS HEADS AND YOUR FUCKING HEAD AND YOUR WIFES FUCKING HEAD BE MORE FUCKING IMPORTANT? i would think so. so when we have NO FUCKING MONEY for a fucking apartment, or other bills, dont come fucking crying to me. and he keeps fucking forcing the issue, he keeps forcing it, im going to fucking say no. EVERY FUCKING DAY he has something to say about it, well keep fucking talking about it, cuz its NOT going to fucking happen. he was supposed to save 4 grand from his fucking taxes so we could have money to move into a place, but NO OF FUCKING COURSE NOT, hes worse than a fucking girl. spending money, while im TRYING to fucking save. they all see me just sitting on the fucking computer all day, FALSE, while i may be on the computer the MAJORITY of the day, im not on it ALL day. and when i am on it, its looking for freebies or ways to fucking save money. i get NO appreciation from ANYONE for it. it doesnt fucking matter if the fucking truck has an alarm on it, it doesnt matter that brian has AAA. it all goes by how long youve had your fucking license and shit like that, if he had it for longer than ONE year, YES it would be cheaper, but hes not "experienced" he hasnt had it 5 years.

unreal

there was a setback with my gram yesterday...they might have to put in a breathing tube, thats BAD. very very BAD. thats the latest update on her

today is maddys 4th birthday. im SUPPOSED to go to the dollar store to pick up stuff for her party, then run to the grocery store to get stuff to make her cake with. big arguement this morning as it ALWAYS is on payday. PEOPLE need to STOP BEING FUCKING GREEDY. i swear people WILL get throat punched and balls chopped off, any guesses whos being greedy? thats right, his stepfather. fucker wants 150 dollars, i protest, but obviously NOONE FUCKING CARES WHAT I FUCKING SAY. so when were broke in two days, i can say FUCK YOU, I FUCKING TOLD YOU SO SO DONT FUCKING BITCH AT ME. like all i need to get at the dollar store is paper plates/cups/silverware, cat food and laundry detergent, cake mix, frosting and eggs. then down at the grocery store writing frosting and tips for those plus chicken nuggets and french fries for dinner. because thats what she said she wanted for her birthday dinner. its just going to be us girls anyways, dad and dumbass have to go to middlefield to paint a floor, and brian needs to help move furniture so the newly painted floor doesnt get scratched. i also have to get milk while im at the grocery store and some fucking mayo and bread and chips so we can have tuna for lunch. difficult to make tuna without bread or mayo...nevermind that i have 13 or so dollars i was going to bring with me so i didnt spend a lot of his money. cuz GOD FORBID i spend ANYTHING. sunday i got 75 for my birthday, who spent most of it? HIM of course. MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY MONEY AND I GOT TO SPEND MAYBE 2.35 and I DIDNT EVEN SPEND THAT, mack did because she needed pads. she started her FIRST period the other day. what a great fucking birthday for maddy huh? to make up for that, ill get some balloons at the dollar store and give her ONE of her presents today. probably her preschool workbook, and her thomas movies on saturday. yeah, im NOT in a good fucking mood. told him to only give his piece of shit stepfather 50. just FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. and when he said no, i said "fine, well have a crappy party, and when were broke, fuck you, dont fucking bitch at me for it, because it will be YOUR FUCKING FAULT." then i slammed the van door and he left for work.

just random

     so last wednesday i found out one of my grams had a MAJOR stroke. scared the shit out of me, not knowing for a whole day what was going on, shes the gram who pretty much disowned me over twin cabbage patch kids, and as much as she and i DONT get along, she IS family. then today i finally got another update, shes doing well enough to be moved to the hospital in my city. its a LONG road with her, as she cant really talk, she CAN move her left side (which is the side a stroke most affects). just found out TODAY the cause of her stroke. she had a clot in her lung and when they did a colonoscopy on her last wednesday, it was apparently dislodged and it went up to her brain causing her stroke, so i guess she was at the drs when it happened, and i guess thats why shes LUCKY it didnt kill her. drs are TRAINED to know the symptoms of a stroke. on the positive note, shes still alive and she survived it.
      one of my aunts on moms side tried to claim SHE took care of my mom when she was dying, and SHE took care of my aunt who died of breast cancer and SHE thinks SHES gonna be the main caregiver of my gram. um NO, does she want to try that shit again? because i can tell you everything WRONG..MY GRAM (the one whos in the hospital right now) AND ME TOOK CARE OF MY MOM *mostly me though, but if i had an errand to run, my gram took care of mom* 2nd, MY MOM AND GRAM AND MY COUSIN took care of my aunt when she was dying of breast cancer. and I'LL probably be the main caregiver (aside from the nurses/drs at the hospital) since I live the CLOSEST to the hospital. of course, my aunts/uncles will help out too, but since i live the closest itll probably be me helping out.

    now that i have THAT out, one of my best guy friends has been hinting that he misses being with me, though he KNOWS im MARRIED, and we live 1500 miles apart, (he lives in fl, im in ma). all day friday he was apparently thinking naughty thoughts about me, and how we were never TECHNICALLY together, we just acted like it for 3 yrs. EVERYONE thought we were together, because we would cuddle on the couch, hold hands, just in general did everything together. he won me a porcelain doll that i still have (cuz shes pretty) and he gave me one for christmas the first year we were "together" still have her too, because like my mom, i collect them. he would come up to my house *when i lived in fl* every weekend (never stayed the night though) he would just stay late and we would go for walks, go swimming, have dinner together, go out to movies you know, typical date things. he lived an hour away from me when i lived in fl. so he would drive up every friday or saturday so we could hang out. and i think he was really upset when i moved. i know i was upset because he was one of my good friends (yes we still talk/text just about every day) funny thing is, i met him in a chatroom on the internet. the last thing we ate together was pizza because i was moving the next day, so he came up to say goodbye (only reason i remember that was because he reminded me, my memory sucks) hes a good guy, hes sweet, but the truth of the matter is im married and i would NEVER cheat on my hubby, though hes an asshole sometimes i just wanna cut his dick off. my friend knows this. (that i would never cheat on my hubby) i think my friend was actually in love with me, though he never said it only because of him thinking those thoughts about me and how hes always thinking about "us" i havent given that a thought until recently when he told me about it. he pretty much has "i want what i cant have syndrome" though theres plenty of people for him to be with, he wants me back, told him im sorry but you know im married and i wouldnt do that to him, you know that. he said he knows. so yeah thats how that went.

     yesterday was easter, as if you didnt know, we went to my aunts house (dads side) for easter dinner and birthday party (for me and my very soon to be 4 yr old) had a good time. i got 75 dollars, a balloon, a candle and a plant. maddy got a Wii game and 3D sidewalk chalk and a balloon. this saturday is her party at my house, then on sunday we are going to my sisters! i cant wait to see her and my niece/nephew. shes doing  a special cupcake for maddy. i have their presents and she has maddys. my niece/nephew have the same birthday, only theyre ONE year apart. my nephew will be 5, my niece will be 4. yes that means maddy is 3 days older than my niece. lol. and everytime we go up there my niece copies maddy. when we were up there last year, she saw maddy wearing shorts (i think) and she started wearing shorts/dresses/skirts. before that she wouldnt. im going to put maddys hair up and see if she wants her hair up too.